Just passed the first week of my life as a SCT...
This week is not as terrifying as I expected...
However I'm never letting my guard down...
I'm still going all out...
Anyway there was a IPPT CAT test...
And I got silver...
It felt great when you pushed yourself over your limit...
It felt great when you told yourself you can do it...
It felt great when you can "absorb" all the pain when you try your best...
For once...
I felt like a "monster"...
Unrestrain and Limitless...
The whole experience gave me new confidence...
That I can ignore all pain now...
I will make it...
I will...

It never hurt that much...
It never did til I knew the truth...
But regardless of whatever it is...
I will never feel that pain again...
Because whatever that is left in this relationship...
Is nothing more than empty spaces...