Hmm...
Not a very productive weekend for me =/
Gotta work things out before this weekend ends...
Starting to see some structure coming out...
But not yet...
Let this study group be set up well...
I need it...
Really hope it will be up soon...
And show some results in MYE...
Come on...
Let it be like before...
Let it produce wonders like it did before...
Only Success no failure...
Mwahahaha!^^

Hmmm...
I hope it can be like the one I set up with my bro in Sec sch...
It has proven to be successful...
Let this success be build on here in this college...
With people I cared for most...
I really hope it will work out...
Lets put in effort into this group alright?
Give it a try...

"I don't want to be dreaming no more...
I'm tired of watching things crumble...
When I know something could have been done...
Let it work this time round alright?"
~AREC

Just like every milestone I faced in my life...
This battle draws near...
This fight is not going to be easy like the previous one...
But a sincere and hardworking attitude...
Is all I need now to achieve what I wan...
Its not as difficult as I used to perceived...
But any small mistake will affect the eventual result...
Soon...
I will be in my room again...
Contemplating...
Strategising...
And do what I need to do...

Perhaps I do have the capability...
Like some have believed in...
All I fear now...
Is my lack of self-discipline...
Hmm...
Arec...
You know what you want in life...
Don't let small desire hinder your path to success...
Never let your guard down Arec...
Haven't you been stabbed hard enough?
Wake up now...
Don't buck up?
Gradually your nightmare will come true...

(Hoping for productive mugging session tmr!)

That's just my life isn't it?
Some say they care...
At the very least everyone in the world these ppl would care...
But are u sure?
Nope they dun care...
They are limiting my chances of success...
Yea...
U wan me to do well for exams...
By not even being able to use my room...
What u wan to see cold hard results?
Regardless of all the price?
Fine...
I wouldn't care bout myself anymore...
I get u wat u wan I leave alrite?
I leave...

That's just my life isn't it?
To fight my war alone...
To be independent...
I din chose to be independent...
I was thrown into the ocean...
and FORCED to be independent...
I won't care...
Just like u do...
I will survive...
In my own efforts!

Somehow...
I felt kinda glad that council term was over...
Coz this meant that I can finally settle down and study...
I nvr once said I was smart...
And I'm sure the whole world agrees with me on this fact...
That I wasn't smart at all...
So from this moment on...
I'm going to study...
Study for the sake of my future...
I'm no longer going to care about anything else...
Bcoz nothing really matters anymore...
Life have been a mirage for me for the past year...
And I'm not going to smoke thru A lvl...
Nope...
Not going to happen...
I would sell my "life" away for my future...
No more going out...
No more excessive leisures...
Its all work now...
I'm not going to prove to the world that I'm a mugger...
I will prove that I'm crazy enuff to pursue my dreams...
At almost any price...
Bcoz the actual fact is...
What I really do hav now is but...
A bottle of dream and a handful of sand...
Nothing more than that...

Hmm...
Council term is over...
It's as though we are soldiers sent to the frontline
To fight a war...
All the good times...
All the tough times...
All the times cover for each other...
All the time where u always noe someone's covering u...
All those times felt really great...
And now...
Its as though the war is over...
We went back to our little old town...
On the way home...
We exchange hugs...
And hope to see each other again...
Even though we may not see each other as often...
But we do noe tat somewhere inside...
We are still there in each other's hearts...
I'm gonna seriously missed those times...
Forever Loved...9th Council...

Thx for being there all these times...
When the going gets tough...
And I'm on the brink of giving up...
Thx for reminding me why I took it up in the first place...
Ur drawing is here...
To always remind me where we are...
Silently...
I miss u...

"How I wish u could the spend the night with me last night..."
See you...
My fren...

Arec is soon to find himself...
Fulfilling his small desire...
Eventually he will hav to move on...
And work towards the bigger dream...
Go Arec...