Saturday, May 31, 2008
"Hav you ever feel that u hav lost everything?"
Its my MSN nick now...
I hav this feeling once...
And now its back again...
Yea it was the internal elections juz now...
And by the looks...
U should noe how it went...
I believe I hav lost much more than I tot I lost...
I lost the position...
(I've gotten over it after much thought)
I lost my love...
(The last and the next)
I lost my short-term goal...
(It happen to quickly before I even tot about it)
And I realised the biggest lost is...
Myself...
Perhaps I've said it many times...
But ever since 2 years ago...
I've been trying very hard to please everyone...
I've been trying very hard to live up to the expectation...
True that that is me...
But in the process of improving myself...
I gradually lost who I am...
I dun even noe who I am...
Where is that amusing young joker...
Who nvr fails to lighten the spirit of everyone?
Where is that ever optimistic leader...
Who dares to take the iniative and do what others dare not?
Haiz...
I guess I lost it all...
Now I juz wish to find my identity...
And serve my purpose in life...
I juz wanna say that...
I love u no matter what...
And that even though I believe u may not hav any feelings for me...
I will continue to love u...
Juz tat perhaps its love in the dark bah...
Dream to live; Live to dream
8:27 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Hmm...Updates...
Times hav been rather tough before...
But its better now...
Holis hav come...
Slowing the pace slightly...
Life's been fine for me...
Hmm...
Sports day...
Gm meeting...
I muz say...
I din giv my 100% =(
Perhaps I'm juz tired...
Perhaps the chains tat tied me down forbids me to do so...
Perhaps I'm juz finding excuses...
Anyway...
I will continue to fight on...
And I believe...
Sometimes...
Life is an irony...
Anyway I've learn to take myself seriously...
And take others lightly...
Some ppl juz force me to care less...
So I decided to care for those tat wans them...
And ignore those tat dun...
Lets juz hope next sat go well...
Though how eagerly I would like to be the One...
I dun mind if its Someone more capable than me...
For now...
I would like to juz...
Perhaps to regain my vigor...
Argh...
From now on...
I wouldn't talk bout love anymore...
For I knew for every gain...
There is a pain tats bound to happen...
Let things be natural...
For everything I am now...
I've gone through much to the extent tat...
I've lost myself and no longer noe who I am...
Many hearts were torn bcoz of this thing call love...
Although there were happy times...
P.S. Whenever I came to this page, I dunno wat to write...
Blogging seems to hav lost its purpose...
And It doesn't matter if I close this blog...
It will probably take a month before anyone realised...
Dream to live; Live to dream
2:33 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Hmm...
Life has been...
Haiz...
I love the life i'm living...
But things juz makes it worse...
Who do things like tis hav to happen...
I'm so numbed to it le...
One after another...
They juz fall...
Oh well...
Wats worse is my 6th sense...
Its like going crazy recently...
My dreams turn to reality within days...
It juz freaks me out...
Its been a while since it happened...
I dunno wats going to happen...
But I hope something good will happen...
Lets not talk about it anymore...
We shall see...
Remember wat I said...
About burying my love in the deepest part of my heart?
I guess it can't be done...
I really can't forget u...
See u recently again...
Everything juz came back...
I dunno how u will react if i told u my feelings...
Perhaps u dun hav feelings at all...
Perhaps u wouldn't even try at all...
Perhaps u do hav feelings for me...
Yet we study in different parts of SG...
We both may not even hav time to see each other...
Perhaps u will believe it won't work bcoz of tis...
But If its so...
I believe we should try...
Even if u dun hav feelings for me...
U might wanna giv me a chance...
Maybe u will realised when u do so...
Or perhaps...
U do hav feelings and are willing to try...
I juz...
Wanna be wif u...
Dream to live; Live to dream
10:07 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Ah...
My shrouded mind is cleared now...
Hopefully soon...
I would resume my full thinking capacity...
My goals, targets and visions are cleared too...
I hav finally taken much of the reign of control over my life...
I believe its time move on towards my target...
Oh well...juz came by to share abit haha!^^...
Dream to live; Live to dream
8:14 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Omg...
Feeling so Weak now...
First,Prolonged On-Off Fever...
Second, Blows after Blows taken...
Suddenly feel so tired...
Feeling so moody now...
Hmm...
Wake up Arec...
Take control of ur life and emotion...
Come On!
Dream to live; Live to dream
2:53 PM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Hmm...
Alot of things happening lately...
Occasional on-off fevers...
Sudden Emo-ness...
Feeling rather Gloomy anyways...
Muz really get a grip on my emotions...
Perhaps its juz me feeling...
Abit...
Target-less...
Or maybe Im juz losing hope somehow...
Anyways I need to make some changes again...
Lets see bah
Haha!^^
Everything is going smoothly actually...
Perhaps its juz the songs I listen to Lately...
-,-
Oh well...
Gtg now...
Hmwk dun do themselves ok?
Haha...
Dream to live; Live to dream
8:04 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Its really really very hard...
Its so close yet so far...
It really hurts not being able to see u...
I really wanted to be wif u...
But now...
More and more things are creeping up my neck...
Wif PW and Council...
Perhaps I was right...
We really need time to get on track wif other commitments...
When the time comes...
That we really hav time for each other...
We will be together...
Perhaps I am being selfish not letting u noe...
Perhaps I'm doing u a favour by sparing u the embarassment...
But in any case...
I dun think I should speak...
All I wanted to say in this post is...
I hav decided to bury this love in the deepest part of my heart...
It will be uncovered on the day u realised...
Or the fateful day I'm waiting to come...
For now...
Its best tat I focus on other things...
I'm Srry...
Dream to live; Live to dream
10:29 AM
All it takes is just one small move to ruin it all...
Dream to live; Live to dream
12:52 AM
Gone Case...
Dream to live; Live to dream
12:50 AM
