"One of the way to measure success,
is probably how many times u tried different method,
and failed how many times,
before finally getting the answer that suits u..."

Hmmm...
Its been rather...bland lately...
Although in some sense its good...
As its time to mug...
But nonetheless very boring..
"Get used to it"
Said a voice in my head...
Perhaps I would...
But anyway...
Chonging papers after papers now...
And gathering the knowledge tats missing...
Hmm...

"Study...Group? I hope but will nvr be..."

Hmm...
I've pissed off/disappointed more than enuff teachers...
Its going to be "sch->home ->mug->eat->sleep->sch" cycle...
Not going to care about anything anymore...
Now is sleep time...
In 10hrs times its sch time...
Nitez...

Back for a lil update after MYE...
My results were...
Disappointing...
Even more disappointing when I tink I've really tried hard tis time...
No matter wat...
I still gotta continue trying...
Tis time..
Even harder than before...
Bcoz I'm not going to giv up...
Not going to let go...
Not going to be defeated again...
So...
JYJYJYJYJY again bah...

Staying right on track~
GO!!!!~

Haiz...
Suddenly I do wonder...
If the decision I made around 2 years ago was right...
Had I not reject that offer...
I might be less stressful and no trapped in the situation I'm in now....
Oh wells...
Its already been in this state already...
Nothing much I can do now...
Other than continue-ing wif what I'm doing...
And hope that I'm might do well thru sheer hardwork...
Some ppl may take my words for joke now...
But I mean it...
Its no longer smooth-sailing like last year...
This time...
I'm really facing a death trap...
At this rate...
All the nice pictures drawn about me future...
Would burn and vaporize...
Why is everyone not sensing a problem?
Why is everyone assuring I will do well?
When I'm getting deplorable results...
I dun understand...
I seriously dunno wat is happening...
1 full term focusing on 2 weakest subject...
And the result I get is 1/5 of the overall?
And the comment I got is seek help?
What happen to effort being proportionate to result?
I've no idea wats happening to me...
But apparently I'm screwing up my results...
MAJOR SCREW UP...
I guess thats how its going to be bah...
No matter what...
I will continue trying hard...
I cannot afford to fail...
Not at the current situation...
No....

Hmmm...
Exams are really...
I dunno how I should feel...
Seems like the general performance by everyone wasn't good...
But I can't help but think that I could do so much more...
Haiz...
Depressing results will really topple me...
Afterall I believe I threw in alot for this exam...
If the results are still bad...
It juz spells trouble for myself...
I juz wan to get things over and done wif now...
I need some time to cool down bah...
Somehow...
I hav much more worry than I can handle...
Perhaps I need a rest...
Juz hope tat I will be fine...

"Time will tell tales, but at this moment future is but infinite uncertainty..."