Just came back from council bbq...
And had SCS sports day this morning...
Had alot of fun...
Won the cheer competition...
Was really great to see my old frens in council...
But somehow when I'm here in my room...
I know myself...
No matter how "full of action" my life seems...
Its all empty inside...
And I realised...
I did change quite a bit these few months...
Not exactly for the best...
And I guess I gotta work on it...

I've walked the wrong path...
Somehow I believe I shouldn't have taken this path...
But whatever it is...
I will realign myself once again to my goals...
Though this journey of self-redemption is long...
And I will walk this path alone...
I will move on...
Because after I've walked so long...
Thinking that people are all around me...
I realised...
I was wrong...

Just passed the first week of my life as a SCT...
This week is not as terrifying as I expected...
However I'm never letting my guard down...
I'm still going all out...
Anyway there was a IPPT CAT test...
And I got silver...
It felt great when you pushed yourself over your limit...
It felt great when you told yourself you can do it...
It felt great when you can "absorb" all the pain when you try your best...
For once...
I felt like a "monster"...
Unrestrain and Limitless...
The whole experience gave me new confidence...
That I can ignore all pain now...
I will make it...
I will...

It never hurt that much...
It never did til I knew the truth...
But regardless of whatever it is...
I will never feel that pain again...
Because whatever that is left in this relationship...
Is nothing more than empty spaces...

Hmmm...
Just POPed 4 days ago...
Although the feeling was great...
And I manged to finished the 24km
But I guess things were supposed to work out...
Nothing special about it bah...
Kinda sad that the rain came and we din manage to hav our parade...
Oh wells...
Had a great time these 2 days at Clarence's house and bbq at East Coast...
Yepz=)

I realised that...
I tend to take on responsibility that I have no obligation to...
And sometimes I do question myself why I do so...
Probably the best explanation is the satisfaction I get from a job well done...

Sometimes...
I secretly wished that you would tell me that...
I'm that very important person to you...
Just like you are that very important person to me...
Even though at this point in time...
It doesn't matter who I am to you...
What matters most is that...
If you dare to take my hand...
I promise you that someday...
We'll make it there=)