Friday, October 26, 2007
Yozz...
The O is everything in my mind for the past weeks
But yet when it came...I felt it being so "friendly"...
Either its been giving me a false sense of security...
Or its really wat i tot it would be...
My preparation for O juz made me realise...
2 years worth of knowledge ain't nth...
All that matters in the exam hall...
isn't the 2 years worth of knowledge...
But ur performance then...
Been having mixed feelings these few days...
I realised i change easily...
and the changes is drastic and yet quick...
I realised my concentration on revision...
Made me "evil" in a certain sense...
I tried to escape problems...
I dun even care bout anything else...
But all this is going to end soon...
My concentration will end in 2 weeks time..
And then I will be like before...
If I offend anybody or being insensitive in any way...
Pls forgive me...I m going Crazy^^...
Well I gtg...
I feel so tired...
I feel so numb...
My pessimism is creeping in...
My sudden pangs of sadness is returning...
I noe everyone cares for me...
Yet i feel so...
"Unfeeling"
My goals seems to shatter...
Its not the exam performance...
I dun noe why...
Maybe something bad is going to happen...
I really wan tis exam to end quick...
So tat i can end this isolation...
I hav all the freedom...
But I m trapped in this room mentally...
I dun wish to be wat I used to be...
Perhaps I juz need a long rest after the exams...
A nice long sleep...
Under the stars...
The sky will be my blanket...
The earth will be my bed...
Will you come and watch stars with me?
Perhaps i noe the answer before I even ask the question...
Dream to live; Live to dream
9:25 PM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Yozz...
Came to update my Rush to Malaysia and back...
(this is going to be a long post)
And srry everyone...din bring anything back for ya...
coz no time to shop...
Ok lets talk bout my journey
Lets go(LOL!)
1st day
5 am wake up to prepare...(Sluggish)
then move off to 2nd link...
meet my uncle and a relative after the custom...(both driving too)
3 hr drive to Muar on the highway...(near Malacca)
Stopped at Muar to eat breakfast/lunch...
Hit the road again to my grandma's house...
Reach le rest abit then went round the whole area...
To visit relative...
Then at night went to one of my uncle's hse
Played wif the dog...
Juz the type of dog i like...
Take a look and u would noe wat type..^^
Yepz....big muscular dogs like a Husky...
Someone u can depend on when u really need it..
(Its a female...so its more dormant...^^)
And had a lor of *Sea Hum*(cockles or watever u call it)
Its fresh...Its tasty...and best of all is much cheaper^^
Then went back home to sleep...
2nd day
Morning slacking...(Of coz i sleep till very late)
Ate my Nasi Lemak and later eat Bak Kut Teh (Malaysian style...)
It was considered good...
Then later went home(grandma's hse)...
While my parent went for some more relative visiting...
(And go for Wedding dinner..which the younger ones are not going)
Then continue my Bike Refresher Course^^
My skills ain't rusty though long time nvr ride...Not bad leh...
Then at nite went for Snooker...
Not on form...lose until crazy...zzz...
Then went home quite late...
Played some Cards...(My bro...Ah Bao my cousin of the same age...and ME^^)
(Ah Bao nvr lost and my bro and I had to deal all the time...LOL!)
But my parents went home later^^
3rd day
Final day...
Wake up relatively early...
Coz my other cousin came by...with her cute baby...din take photo(oh man...)
Then after tat my Dad wanna buy some Seafood back...
(Cheaper and nicer than Singapore one...)
Then went off...Ah Bao ride a bike wif me at the back...(No license and TP all around)
My Bro and Dad took the older bike there...
My Bro went off earlier...
And Ah bao and I lost them...
And was riding round the whole area searching for them...
Later found them at the uncle's hse(The one at the first nite)
Then talk a bit...then went off to buy the seafood at a port...
My Dad was wif my uncles on the car...
My Bro ride the old bike and Me and Ah Bao Followed behind
My Bro's bike stopped at a junction and after we fixed the prob...
The car went on le...
Ah Bao decide to take the lead and try to find the car(We dun really noe the way)
Then sped past my bro...
Ended up lost the car(Again!?)
Went back to find my bro and oso cannot find...
Got slightly panicky(coz my bro bike dunno got fuel anot)
So went round search again...
And our final bet was to go home to find him...
(Maybe not enuff fuel went home refuel)
Went home cannot find...
Then My mum and my auntie went off to find them...
(We decided to stay home if he return...)
Ended up my mum and auntie went home...
My bro was at the port lol...
And we were told the port was at the road...
Where there is a sign writing 'ikan blah blah blah'...
I notice the sign on the way and ask my cousin...he said no not tat...
And went past ahead lol...
Anyway stayed at home and missed out on a *GuBang* BBQ
(zzz)
Then continue my short ride around my grandma hse on bike...
Then prepare for home trip (S'pore)...
I finishing preparing early and went to talk to Ah Bao (Man talk haha^^)
Then on the way home we go...
On the way...it was raining slightly...the view after the rain was splendid...
(Will upload the pic soon...coz cannot upload now...)
Then rest 2 time b4 reaching Singapore...ate KFC at the second link rest...
Went home....And sleep...tats all...
How I wish that u noe how much I love u...
How I wish u noe how much I miss u all the time in Malaysia...
How I wish that we will have a pet dog together...
How I wish to share the seafood wif u...
How i wish that ur arms are around my waist when I ride the bike wif u...
How I wish to spend our old age together in Malaysia...
And live a carefree life wif a house on a piece of land...
Right now we should concentrate on O lvl...
After tat i hope u will noe after O lvl...
And u will love me as much as I love u...
I wish...
Dream to live; Live to dream
12:34 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Update^^...
Srry for the lost of update...
Been busy lately...
Actually i haven been really study...
I dun hav the motivation...
Anyway...
Today was physics practical...
I think I have done exactly what i predicted this morning...
But generally i did well...
Strangely today I intended to sms and ask Shaun 2 question...
Before i send the message...
The message came wif the reply answering my question!!
I was like...Shocked!
Went to eat lunch wif some classmates...
(not tat i dun remember but lazy to name^^)
Went home...rot a bit and stuff...
Now dunno wat to do...
Soon i will cre8 a 6/2 blog...
For those who still wanna catch up wif old friends...
I really hope everyone will support this blog...
And I will cre8 a email to store all contact info...
Of 6/2 peeps who wans to keep in touch...
This way...Gatherings can be organised easily...^^
Kkz...gtg le...anything tag me alrite?
Sometimes I dun even noe myself...
I dun even noe why i hav such evil thoughts at times...
I do believe I hav split personality...
No matter wat...
I wan to do things tat I will nvr regret...
Dream to live; Live to dream
6:12 PM
