Friday, June 11, 2010
Hmmm...
The whole thought of BMT ending soon brought in headache...
Alot decisions have to be made...
And alot of worries...
All that made me a lil grumpy these days...
Hmm...
Qn 1: Sign on?
Qn 2: If given the chance, go OCS?
These 2 main qns will lead to many sub qns...
Eventually they made up alot of choices...
I'm really couldn't decide anything now...
Too many uncertainty...
I'm really very emotionally "..."
Hmmm...
Haiz...
BMT is nearly over...
Some things never changed...
Somehow...
I've really no idea what kept me going...
Or whether I'm even advancing...
I need a source of motivation...
I've no confidence in going OCS if I have no motivation...
Though I feel myself stronger...
(Physically or mentally I'm not sure)
But I'm sure its not enough...
Haiz...
I guess when I lost the last gem...
I'm not going to find another...
Dream to live; Live to dream
12:35 AM
