Haiz...
Sitting in my literally dark and cold room...
Sometimes...
I juz feel like ranting...
How my life has been...
Some said my life is perfect...
I'm "successful" in a sense...
Academics no problem...
Frens...Loads of em'...
Loads of em' are very close ones...
But I realised from my point of view...
It will nvr be perfect...
I'm not asking alot...
I juz wan to build finish my final pillar of support...
I failed once b4...
Miserably...
I've nvr said it b4...
But it took me a few weeks to get over it...
And now...

When everything seems to go well...
Everything seems fine...
She said I had to wait...
And I said I will...
And eventually it came to tis...
I wasn't angry or anything...
It juz felt like more and more arrows...
Spears and sword and everything else...
Piercing thru my seemingly thick armour...
Right thru my heart...
Even my 2 most fav. song...
Viva la vida and Here (in ur arms)
Sounds like the saddest song in the world...
(well its the piano version by david sides...)
The band hellogoodbye seems like an irony now...
I told her its ok...
But deep inside...
It really hurts...
It does...
And it hurts much more than the last time..
Its not our fault...
I'm not blaming one for anything...
But Im really juz feeling helpless..
Tat life has to put me in such predicament...
I'm juz...
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