Friday, October 26, 2007
Yozz...
The O is everything in my mind for the past weeks
But yet when it came...I felt it being so "friendly"...
Either its been giving me a false sense of security...
Or its really wat i tot it would be...
My preparation for O juz made me realise...
2 years worth of knowledge ain't nth...
All that matters in the exam hall...
isn't the 2 years worth of knowledge...
But ur performance then...
Been having mixed feelings these few days...
I realised i change easily...
and the changes is drastic and yet quick...
I realised my concentration on revision...
Made me "evil" in a certain sense...
I tried to escape problems...
I dun even care bout anything else...
But all this is going to end soon...
My concentration will end in 2 weeks time..
And then I will be like before...
If I offend anybody or being insensitive in any way...
Pls forgive me...I m going Crazy^^...
Well I gtg...
I feel so tired...
I feel so numb...
My pessimism is creeping in...
My sudden pangs of sadness is returning...
I noe everyone cares for me...
Yet i feel so...
"Unfeeling"
My goals seems to shatter...
Its not the exam performance...
I dun noe why...
Maybe something bad is going to happen...
I really wan tis exam to end quick...
So tat i can end this isolation...
I hav all the freedom...
But I m trapped in this room mentally...
I dun wish to be wat I used to be...
Perhaps I juz need a long rest after the exams...
A nice long sleep...
Under the stars...
The sky will be my blanket...
The earth will be my bed...
Will you come and watch stars with me?
Perhaps i noe the answer before I even ask the question...
Dream to live; Live to dream
9:25 PM
